Trying to get into the habit of posting on my blog every Sunday. This past Sunday I spent all day with my grandma .
When we got back to her house we ate Hawaiian BBQ at the table and I read her every blog post I’ve had so far.
“Deep” she said. “I wonder if I would have been able to grasp that before I got sick?”
My grandma was in a coma for 6 months back in 2007; she had an aneurism and a stroke and my family were advised by doctors to let her go.
Obviously we did not. It is now 2021 and she forgets a lot of things because of short term memory loss and when I try to explain any of what I talk about on here it is sometimes too confusing for her.
I have so much patience when it comes to her. When I explain things to her she asks me questions that when I answer it helps her better understand the concepts.
By altering the way I explain things to her I then figure out how to explain things on social media.
“What should today’s blog post be about?” I asked.
“Reflection”
“Reflection?”
“Yes all day today you looked back on your life and are understanding the lessons. Reflection. Look at what you did today.”
I really liked that idea. On Sunday I didn’t post because I was reflecting on the reflection I had done earlier that day with my grandma.
By the time Sunday evening was happening I came to the realization of how bad I really do dodge my feelings
Sunday night I thought I did something I regretted.
I guess I just allowed myself to be honest with my feelings for once.
I expressed some feelings. Maybe not in the way I envisioned in my mind for months however I did it.
I felt a little bit lighter Monday Morning.
I had finally said the things I wanted to say.
Life doesn’t ever stop for anyone, you go with the flow and when things seem to not work in your favor, look at it as a lesson.
There was no blog post on Sunday and I was upset I let y’all down when in reality I was just a human experiencing a lot of emotions that day.
I had no energy to create.
And that was okay.